Lindsay Lohan bares her soul in the March 2008 issue of Paper Magazine.

JOBS
"They either want to take a chance or they don't, is how I see it," says Lohan.

PARTIES
"I had a lot going on in my life and that was a way of hiding from it," she explains. "I hadn't seen my dad; I had a lot of work stress 'cause I was constantly working and never took time to stop."

"Everything was go-go-go, and the easiest thing was to run away from it, going out and drinking at night," she says. "You know, you don't have to think when you let go sometimes."

She adds, "But I didn't realize it was getting in the way of my work – what I've worked for my whole life."

That changed: "There's not really much else to do when you're sitting in a treatment center. It's like, 'Why am I here? Let's think,' "

FUTURE
"Right now I just want to find a great script, a great role," says Lohan. "I was so used to working and working and working, and for a good few months there was nothing for me to do. Now I know what it's like to be an out-of-work actor, and how much it scares me."